i can't live without you
what did i do to deserve this?
did i not attend church enough
or give my devotions abundantly?

i can't bear to glance down again
to know that it's you lying there--
cold and blue in the casket
all life sucked from your body

it's too shocking
i don't want to believe it
can't give into the chaos
give me some hope. some sign of life.
something to hold on to.

but now i'm empty and alone
walking this world fatherless
closely observing your chest
in that wooden barren casket
imagining that in one breath
you'd be alive again
that you'd be spared.

but, you weren't.
and now, my dry cheeks
are screaming in pain
they need tears to replenish
but the ducts in my eyes
won't release what i need.

crying is too painful.

05/29/2003

Author's Note: written from truth

Posted on 05/30/2003
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