I think it would be enough to say
that
all these promises are hollow
or to say
that this stutter of mine is
my thought processes falling
all over themselves
in the hopes of sounding

sincere.

He says to me:
'Let go with both hands
so that you can hold on to me.
I wont let you fall if you hang on'

Theres a girl inside me
somewhere,
becoming a little more fearful
that she will give up
on her/self(destruct),
becoming less
sure of giving up
that voice that
says

I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you

Find the bones
and you'll find my
firm foundation,
an act
of deprivation
as a way of calming down.....

then he says:
'You are good Enough'

and inside, the voice that says
'you will never be..'

The duality
that tears me.

05/28/2003

Posted on 05/29/2003
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