...and why I plan on learning to reproduce asexually
Or with the use of binary fission
Like bacteria.

Ok, so in my life
I have had 5 "relationships"
2 were serious
1 was with a man many years my senior
1 was with a guy that my best friend ended up dating for over a year
And 1 was with a really good guy that just didn't work out.
In all of these "relationships,"
I was the one that got burned.
So I know that I am a woman.
I am supposed to have confidence,
but I'm pretty shaken up.
I know I'm not supposed to do this,
But I can't help but ask myself
"What is it about me that turns people off?"
"What turns them away?"
And my friends say
"It's not you, it's them."
But 5 guys? 5?
5 different guys.
Not 1
FIVE!
And I'm not a rebound psycho or anything.
When I get hurt, I take time out for myself.
But damn!
I'm sick of this crap.
Taking risks
Getting shot down.
How many more times will I have to do this?
I hope just one or two.

04/18/2003

Posted on 04/19/2003
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