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CALVARY
by Kalikala SmithWalked home today,
yesterday,
tomorrow,
in a stupor.
Couldn't see behind me,
in front, below,
above me.
Confusion set in,
and I didn't fight
anymore.
Just let calvary
consume
everything.
Just let it wash
over you
like rain,
until you can't
comprehend
anything.
Numbness set in
and lights became
brighter, more intense.
Senses kicked in and
swam rampant
through the blood,
taking over,
with an armada of
tremendous force.
On the brink of
insanity
navigation was key,
to somewhere,
anywhere,
not here, to be safe,
from myself.
I let calvary
consume
everything,
not fighting the
rain
or the immense,
strain
that it brought
upon me.
Uncontrolled motion,
emotions,
running about
at tremendous speed
uncontained,
controlling me
uncaring about
what it was doing to
my senses.
Dizziness, blackouts,
intensity ripping
through any shreds
of hope.
I am not me,
I am calvary. 04/12/2003 Author's Note: calvary: an experience of intense mental suffering
Posted on 04/12/2003
Copyright © 2025 Kalikala Smith
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