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guilt
by Kalikala SmithI screw up
again
my life's cruising
and then
it just all goes up
in flames
around me.
I'm selfish
and cruel
my heart's molded
like a fool's
and grounded
with your feelings
surrounding me.
I just don't understand
how any kind of man
can live by an unknown plan
and be okay with it.
I'm always losing ground
can't keep up and won't look down
don't know how one can be sound
with this confusion.
Made another mistake
again
my life's coming to
and end
I'm wrapped up with you
and fall away
from what's around me.
I knew that I could hurt you,
and I thought I never would
I thought that I deserved you,
and now I know that I could... not.
I hope you can forgive me
whomever I hurt
because I love you both dearly
and that just makes it worse.
Oh shame, shame, shame,
I'll take the blame again.
Oh pain, pain, pain,
what have I done again.
It's always for me
and never for you.
It's what I don't see
that makes me so cruel.
Lord save me
from this sin of mine
I can't breathe
I've commetted another crime.
Have mercy
all that judge
because I screwed up again,
and I'm feeling a little lost. 04/12/2003 Author's Note: umm, from what i remember this poem is about me asking two people to the prom... ya, a bit overboard for such a small event, but i was a big drama queen... what can i say:)
Posted on 04/12/2003
Copyright © 2024 Kalikala Smith
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