close your eyes.
this keeps us safe when we let it.
i am not a child until
(i am down on my knees at midnight
praying for forgiveness, for the lives of
all that i love)
i am praying for one more breath before he makes me
swallow it whole

what i really want to know is

(on a rainy tuesday night, who does he dream
about?
i mean, really..)

is if you suck or if you blow?
i mean, really..

because
i suck(ed) but it only served to
blow him away. and i closed my eyes
every single time but

(it never made me know him better)
it never kept me
safe.

04/08/2003

Author's Note: just tell me to wake up.

Posted on 04/09/2003
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