I was not ready when I lost you. I just took the pain and buried it inside and tried to carry on.

I would stand in the shower and cry and cry until my tears were dry. The world seemed so empty without you.

Each year you are gone I have grieved for you differently. The shock, the anger, the loneliness passed like seasons.

Now I am ready to put a little closure on the reality of what has happened.

I plant this tree for you so that you know that I still miss you and adore you and that you will always be remembered,

And I plant this tree for me so I can say goodbye to the hard parts of losing you and embrace only the memories of having you.

When I plant this tree I will bury the pain under the soil deep so I do not have to carry it-

And I will stand tall like the tree even in the wind and the rains -I know that it will make me stronger.

You will anchor me like you always have, my strength, my roots.

This tree is a healing, a remembrance, a symbol, a goodbye and soft kiss in the wind.

I was not ready when I lost you but today I am ready to say goodbye to the sadness and rejoice in your life.

09/25/2002

Posted on 03/16/2003
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