ramblings.... by Gabrielle L GervaisI try to imagine what it would be like, to be in love with you. I look at you, and wonder what it would feel like, what it would taste like. To love with you. I would be afraid, of losing. Well
Im afraid of losing you now, as I sit here in your arms
even for just one second. Because I know that when you let go, it used to be me who would turn my back- but now I just hold on until we remember who we are
in a matter of seconds
But while I sit there for that time, and we hold, I feel every feather of contact and imagine that if you didnt let go if we would just melt into each other. I wish you would let us melt into each other. I wish I had let us- Melt. Like those summer days of childhood. Wind-swept car-rides Crayola blue and red
But as I sit here, we think about love, and I wonder what it would feel like if I were in love with you. What would it feel like if I loved you and needed you and wanted only you
and how would that feel if you were in love with me still? But I know, that as we let go, you think of your pixie. And you think, that when we let go, I think of mine. But I think of you
and it hurts to think of you. Letting go hurts. Which is why, when Im not dreaming, I am busy with infatuation. Pretending to fall in love with a pixie of my own. But I know the difference between infatuation and you. I wonder, what it would taste like to be in love with you. I imagine its like an empty subway stop and the echo of laughter. 02/20/2003 Posted on 02/21/2003 Copyright © 2024 Gabrielle L Gervais
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