I can't help but wonder...
If you were here now...what my life would be like...
Thirteen years ago I lost you...
Never got the chance to say good-bye

I remember that day...
So awful...full of rain and gloom
I should have figured out you were gone
God was crying that afternoon...

For everyone you left behind
For every life that you had touched
God knew that we had all loved you
And you would be missed so much

I remember getting off the bus from school
So happy because it was my turn to visit you
The boys had had their turn the night before
So it was Erika and I...just us two

I knew from mom's tears and dad's sad face
As we walked in through the front door
We wouldn't have our turn that night
We wouldn't be able to visit you anymore

I attempted to be strong...
I couldn't even try
I quickly left the room
And went off by myself to cry

I was only eight years old
There was so much I didn't get
I know I wasn't ready for you to go Grandma
You couldn't leave...not yet

You'd never see me graduate...
Or see me go off to my first dance
You'd never see the boys play sports
What I'd give for a second chance

Just to tell you that I love you
Find out how it feels to die
And tell you that I'm sorry
I missed my chance to say good-bye

02/17/2003

Author's Note: This is dedicated to my grandmother, Agnes Redmond Bennett, who passed away when I was in the third grade, in May of 1990.

Posted on 02/17/2003
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