the doctors not in right now
so leave a message with the girl
in the corner playing with her own
hands and scratching itches that
aren't even there.
i'm supposed to smile at you and
wink in your presence but my mind
is asleep with the people i once buried
and it's too cold for warmth anyway.
they're screaming in toungues again
but this i understand, it's their
annoying laughter that gets me,
confusing me, confused and they say
to act normal so i sit up straight and
they say insanity scares them and look
to me.
i'm balancing books and time and loves
on my head pretending to walk but
running instead and i'd slow down for
a touch of something real but through
all this waste, i've forgotten how to feel.
normal.
and normally, this wouldn't be a matter
worth dealing with. digging through the
frowns, lies and other filth, and i'm surprised
you bothered calling at all.
you knew the doctor wasn't in right now
and I'M far too busy to return your call.

12/08/2002

Posted on 12/08/2002
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