being 14 by Gabrielle L GervaisHere we are in our business suits. Side by side
Me, pointing at your hemmed skirt
And pulling at you hair
And the screams of I hate you lay newly wetted on my lips
And Im too stubborn to admit it was a lie
Too angry to take it back
Red blacks out truth
Starting with the cover.
And enveloped in it, I curse the Venus of my childhood.
In the hours after the pointing and pulling and horseshoe words
My wetredlips fade, But,
the blind will stays
In the dark-comfort-loneliness
I confessed to my nightstand pages
That the words werent meant.
And I pretended that when I closed my eyes,
You were there so I could say I loved you blue
like when the waves lick the sky
And I pretended that when I closed my eyes,
You wouldnt be hurt.
And I cried- dont tell anyone I cried.
Out of the frustration that I could never tell you
Could never explain that forgetme-blueness is stronger than that.
11/30/2002 Author's Note: For my mom.
Posted on 12/08/2002 Copyright © 2024 Gabrielle L Gervais
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