iii. lengua seco {mother's salt} by Richard Paez
this time: i kneel down to pray not-quite-naked robed and roped in the salty pride that filled my legions of all-over-blisters after i grabbed hold of your whipping-lash-tail and dared you to strike me harder (come on- i dare you)
next time: to be not-quite-born and hairless-again shut-eyed inward-staring and skin-perfectly-marinated again (extend my moist and tender tongue, touch it to my mother's salt)
back then: you wanted nothing more than a sciatheric-existence nothing more than a punching-bag-son praying-prey to sink your scorpioid words into
this time: i want you to see me for what i am: a run-away cell-growth (i don't want to kill you- i want to replace you)
next time: to be free-fly-drifting and needless-again wide-eyed innocent and skin-perfectly-sanguine-again (extend my moist and tender tongue, touch it to my mother's salt)
back then: you wanted nothing more than a saturnine pin-cushion nothing more than a target-practice-child praying-pray to touch your dry-and-wanting tongue to
this time: i want you to accept me for what i am: a run-away future (a cancer that will never kill you- just replace you)
years and miles away curled up and drifting almost-cured-up and not-quite-fading-away i take my mother's salt just a pinch of my mother's salt use it to season stale wounds, reawaken sleeping abrasions
i squeeze drops of juice from limp and drying blisters i touch my tongue to flakes of old blood
taste my mother's gift the gift of my mother's salt the gift she did-and-didn't give to me the salt- ocean-water tears- ocean-water sweat- ocean-water blood- the gift of mother's salt
my mother's salt i touch my tongue to taste my mother's taste my mother's salt
and right now: i swallow you as you swallowed me and digest what you never could
and from now on: tu lengua seca ya no me tocara, ya no me limpia, ya no me viola, ya no me toca, no me toca, no me toca
12/06/2002 Author's Note:
Spanish Translation: (your dry tongue doesn't touch me anymore, doesn't clean me anymore, doesn't violate me anymore, doesn't touch me, doesn't touch me, doesn't touch me)
As always, all my thanks and love to all my friends who've commented and shared their feelings and thoughts. You guys have made all the difference *s*
Posted on 12/06/2002 Copyright © 2024 Richard Paez
Member Comments on this Poem |
Posted by Betania Tesch on 12/08/02 at 08:00 PM you've got to be wounded before you can heal. one step at a time. *soft smiles* everyday is forward. This took courage and has spoken truly.
(love to you) |
Posted by David R Spellman on 12/09/02 at 06:27 PM Truly a potent and powerful piece full of such wrenching emotion. A brave step to bare this but a healing in itself I'm sure... |
Posted by JD Clay on 01/23/03 at 01:57 PM This is a magnificent and revealing exposee.........MALACHI. I can taste your tears and they say's to me, you have been and are continually being touched and will stay in the folds of the womb forever. This acknowledgement is truely transformational exposing your roots and wings. Peace... |
Posted by Don Coffman on 08/30/03 at 02:23 AM I'm completely amazed once again, all I can really say to such a superb creation is 'wow'. |
Posted by Michele Schottelkorb on 03/17/04 at 05:17 AM spit into a looking glass and see what you can see... the image staring back will be half of your whole... you don't need it to survive... this is cataclysmic in it's raw honesty... i am frozen... dumbfound, in the wake of the truth behind the man... incredible writing it out... actually, the best i have ever seen in this style... you are a diamond in the rough... blessings in light... |
Posted by Michele Schottelkorb on 03/17/04 at 05:20 AM by the way... i am still thinking about the "i don't want to kill you--i want to replace you"... gods, do you know how profound that is?... to have what is your right... a caring a loving mother... i'm so blown away right now... |
Posted by Anastasia Selby on 09/07/08 at 06:36 PM This is gorgeous. Fascinating. I'm speechless. |
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