I feel very odd today.

I keep thinking of things that normally I wouldn't.

I feel as though everything I do is a mistake, incorrect in every way.

I wonder about my life, my love, my hopes, and my future.

I reflect back onto my past, and it upsets me.

I wonder if it is happening all over again?

The symptoms and indications are the same.

My thoughts and desires are the same.

My reasoning is the same.

Yet, in their own light, these things are different.

Different in that they are directed and bore by someone else.

Someone I think I care about more that the previous 'Someone.'

Maybe so, but still my heart remains weary.

A lost kitten, doesn't hurt as much as a lost cat.

11/20/2002

Posted on 11/20/2002
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