i couldn't wait any longer for creative expression to hit me.
if you can't inspire me, then who can...
no really...
so i've been sitting here day in and day out and rethinking
too many things that should never deserve much thought in the first place,
just feelings and actions and words
and everything and nothing and sometimes it's all the same anyway...
isn't it?
i mean..sometimes...
and if i study my hands too long and the emptiness that lies within them now
i am only reminded of your hand no longer being there when just moments
before it hadn't made much of a difference...
your hand not being in mine that is...but everything else..oh everything else...
and it takes a little longer to get sad these days about your absense although
it's there ya know...the weight of your absense, my ability to still cry...
it's all there...
(i checked one day just for good measure made sure the memory of your eyes
could still make me cry...)

so smile because i'm still human.
because i'm still able to feel
the pain of goodbyes and the space
that now resides beside me

it's just sometimes easier the other way ya know...
i mean, sometimes...

11/13/2002

Posted on 11/14/2002
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