Cramping in my belly,
In my chest,
Palpitations of my mind,
Of my heart.

Greedy for something it doesn't have,
For something it wants.
Exosteric conditions prey my soul,
Taboo.

Something I can never have,
Something I am not supposed to want,
Ripping away the core of me,
Never rebuilding it,
Never establishing it's connection.

Craving the sweetness,
Within you.
Wanting it within me.
The beating of my heart becomes stronger,
As my mind passes thoughts by.

Visualizations of your face pass,
A sharp intake of breath,
Knowing, in my heart that it can never be,
Forbidden due to moralities of our society.

Breaking through my subconscious,
Looking to the one beside me,
Knowing I am finished.

With the life I’ve led,
For the centuries it has been,
Wanting another I cannot have.

Has this happened to me before,
Am I reliving an unneeded expectation,
of myself,
of my life.

08/09/2001

Posted on 11/10/2002
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