That night before you closed your eyes for the very last time
I saw them
I saw those deep eyes
filled with wisdom beyond the 13 years I knew
beyond the 15 years you had
even as they glassed over
even as you left me
I saw them,
I see them in my dreams you know
those eyes that I never saw cry
they see me too I hope
they loved me
and I loved thier owner
but we were young
so what was love to us then?
I will never know
what it would mean to be loved by you as an adult
you couldn't come with me on that journey
and I miss you tonight
as I miss you every night
I miss your warmth
and your smile
I miss you laugh most
and how you would sing to me
I miss you
but missing you won't bring you back
to steal a line from 'our play'
we were supposed to go see it weren't we?
I did see it, even in toronto like we had always said we would
Phantom of the Opera
but i need to borrow a few lines from it
" dreaming of you won't help me to do all that you dreamed I could.... no more memories no more silent tears, no more gazing across those wasted years, help me say good bye"
darling I will never forget you
but I have to let go
seven years later
I finally can
forgive me darling
I think I have forgiven myself

11/04/2002

Author's Note: This is for my friend, seven years later and my heart still aches, I guess it is not easy to find your soulmate when you are 5 and lose him when you are only 13.

Posted on 11/04/2002
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