Every day I check and see
If someone came to
Check out me
And read the words
I wrote

I wonder if I'll ever sleep
The peaceful slumber
I used to keep

I wonder if I'll find some peace
Amidst this turmoil
Some true release

I wonder if I'll find some hope
Something to trust in
To help me cope

Every day I wake and think
What if today's the day
Then my eyes they blink
And everything falls
Apart again

I wonder if I'll ever love
Unselfishly with
Another's trove

I wonder if I'll ever rejoice
In little things
Make a right choice

I wonder if I'll ever wait
For things to happen
In time's end fate

Every day I wish to find
Something to cling to
To keep in mind
That makes it worthwhile
To live

I wonder if I'll ever be kind
No sarcastic, harsh,
Unruly, mouth remind

I wonder if I'll ever be gentle
Gentle people get pushed around
But in themselves are settled

I wonder if I'll ever find faith
Living in me alive
Not just an unseen wraith

Every day I hurt and run
From all my demons
I have never won
Or conquered them
Or see much hope

Every day I never see
Never find
Always flee
Every day is just one more
Upon another
An endless store
Every day
I wonder.......

11/04/2002

Posted on 11/04/2002
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