I want to accost the world with my tears

I want to strike out and beat someone into submission

I want to know where I'm going and where I've been

I want to hurt you the way you hurt me

I want to runaway and never come back

I want to hurt the ones I love just because I could

I want to throw breakable objects against the wall just to hear them shatter

I want to curse you because I know it would hurt

I want to miss a responsibility because I felt like it

I want to cut myself just to see myself bleed

I want to stop thinking, imagining, wondering, and just let time fly by

I want to know why you do the things you do

I want to know what you could have possibly have been thinking

I want to act like a child instead of having to be the adult

I want to be right, instead of mostly wrong

I want to go out and have sex with someone I've just met just because I felt like it

I want to hit, and hurt, and strike

I want to burn, and break, and destroy

I want these things without fear of repercussions

I want all of this, and yet never will have it, because that is not who I am.

10/27/2002

Posted on 11/04/2002
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