i almost balled in the
bathroom today
felt the tears coming
but laughed instead
at the idea of tears
falling at a time like
that...
it was almost beautifully
fitting that i should
"almost" cry over you
while taking a piss
but i guess emotion
knows no appropriate
timing
just happens when it happens
'and they all fall down...'
so good for me that i could
see humour when there's so
much pain
so much longing
the feeling of abandonment
and the realisation that i've
donethistomyself
i've done this
to myself
and i know and i know and i know
and you know and they know and we
all know and it's crazy and it
hurts and i can't fix it and i'm
not in as much control as you
thought they thought everyone thought
we all thought.
there's too much thinking
too much so if you don't mind
leave my heart alone
when i'm trying to take a piss
so i don't accidently confuse
flushing the toilet with finally
getting
over you.

10/17/2002

Author's Note: wasn't exactly how i wanted it to come out but i guess it works all the same.

Posted on 10/17/2002
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