What do I do now?

All I want is to call you.

But do I?

Do I call someone else?

Do I sit in silence,

fighting myself quietly?

What do I do?

Tell me,

who do I talk to?

You were all I had.

God I hate you.

Funny, God used to tell me I loved you.

What am I supposed to do?

God thid hurts.

My heart hurts

My breaking, broken heart

I hurt

If I call

What would you say?

Would you tell me what to do?

Would you fight me

or yourself?

I hate you.

God, I don't hate you at all.

Please, tell me,

what am I supposed to do?