It was a hot and humid July night; I was awakened from sounds that echoed deep within the crevice of my mind. The sound of tear drops shaking the foundation of your soul. The cries were so deep and devastating I could feel the ground move. I peered out my window and looked towards the Heaven’s stars. The moon’s radiance lit up the night’s sky giving the earth an eerie glow.
Walking to my balcony I swung open the French doors. I took a step into the night hoping to touch you some how. Loneliness consumed your empty heart with shattered dreams that sent your world into bleeding crystal shards. I closed my eyes and wondered into your dreams. The pain was so over whelming I could hardly bare the sadness that suffocated you.
I saw her saying good-bye as she walked back into the haven of her past. As the door closed I could feel the splinters of wood piercing your heart. It felt like hot spears shooting your existence into nothing. Then the cold wind crept into your veins and froze your flesh until it became numb.
This pain that smothered you I had felt before. Memories flooded the back of my mind making me dizzy. Those same words of loss floated in and stabbed me with its bitter truth. Tears stirred behind my iris making my sight a blur. Words of crashing dreams and broken promises came rushing in.
Fighting to stuff the pain back in its cell I tried focusing back on you. Like a child in need of his mother I wrapped you in my arms to comfort you. Soon the pain dulled as I rocked your soul to sleep. I whispered “I love you and now you are safe.” You did not hear or see me but inside you knew. That someone in this world wanted you to survive. So now you sleep with restless dreams and a sliver of hope to get you through the night.
As you slept a strange thing happened. A window opened in the dark with light that shined so bright. A man stepped through the opened glass and looked upon your face. He then smiled at me and then I knew your father came to be by your side. He had such sad eyes that were full of tragedy. Then he placed his hand upon your face and smiled with regrets.
“My son I am so proud of you and all that you have done. But now you must find inner strength to take you on a journey. It is a path that is far from here and away from all the bitter past. I do not want you to fallow my steps for they ended with a terrible death. You are worth all and more so please don’t loose your head. I see such greatness within your heart even with the loss. But you my son is worth so much more you are my rising son!” Then he looked into my eyes and smiled one last time. He then stepped back into the light and the next minute he was gone.
I stayed with you until dawn keeping you safe and warm. But as the sun rose above the earth I knew it was time for me to leave. I kissed you upon your head and whispered “I love you!” Then the wind rushed in and took me to my home. I keep the memories of that night deep within my heart. Now with every night that covers the earth I say a little pray. I wish for your nights to be filled with hope and you wake to see the sun. I send you a kiss with angel wings to bring you night’s sweetest dreams.

08/16/2002

Posted on 08/16/2002
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