The night dreams began to slip back into the mist back into the night’s illusion. He stretches his arm across the bed, reaching for that familiar scent only to come up with an empty space. His eyelids slowly opened to the realization that he was alone once again. His heart was heavy with the loss of the love that he once had. She left for work early once again to avoid any contact. Slowly he moves himself from the bed and begins his mindless routine of readying himself for the long day ahead of him.

He pulls into his usual parking space and climbs from his car. Just up a head he sees a woman walking towards the building of his place of employment. He had seen her before; she works on his level. He thinks she is beautiful but he has seen the sadness that clouds her eyes. He shuts the car door and begins the journey to his desk that sits at the end of the world.

Eleven o’clock came and it was time for a lunch break. He wasn’t hungry, too many empty thoughts running through his head. Life had just become one big routine and did not feel like life anymore. What was he doing all this for? The kids? He just didn’t know. He just knew that he couldn’t live this way anymore.

Feeling numb and hopeless he walked through the door of the Cafe that sat on the corner a couple of blocks from work. He took a moment to adjust to the dim lights. That’s when he noticed her, the beautiful woman with the sad eyes. Cautiously he walked toward her booth. When she looked up at him he knew that she would steal his heart but he could not stop the pull that connected them. Her slow cautious smile told him a thousand words. He slid into the booth across from her and began a new journey into the land of the living.

Months had past and he began singing and laughing once again. Getting up in the mornings had a whole new perspective. The more time he spent with his new love the more he knew he had to change his world. He had found that she had been living within her own hell and needed to live once more.

One bright and wonderful morning he woke to say “No More!” He packed up his things and tried to reassure his children of his love for them and that this new life will take them into it as well. They would see him as much as possible but he had to take this step forward to become whole once again.

So off he went into this New World of adventure him and his new love. They saw each other every day, feeding his heart back with life. She made him promises that were so enticing he could not resist. He introduces her to his children as she did with hers. Life seemed so good and wonderful like a dream that had come true. So time past with wonder and full of such bliss.

Then one morning the smell of rain drift through the open windows. As the sunlight strained it’s self trying to peek through the veil of clouds in the early morning dawn. Birds began their morning songs as the sounds of life were beginning to stir.

And the night dreams began to slip back into the mist back into the night’s illusion. He stretches his arm across the bed, reaching for that familiar scent only to come up with an empty space. His eyelids slowly opened to the realization that he was alone once again. His heart was heavy with the loss of the love that he thought he had found. Slowly he moved himself to the side of the bed, bent his head and began to cry with such heartbreaking sadness.

Now he is back into the empty void with no hope in sight. He reaches back to that place of blackness wandering if he should go back home. But how can he settle into the past with no hope to be found? How could he find a life there when he can’t find himself? Lost within life are what he finds when all he needs is time to find himself. How could one live without living? He needs to measure his own worth before someone else can see it.

I dedicate this to some one who has lost his way ... One must take their mind a step back into the pain in order to heal ones heart and soul of the wounds that women have made ... For what is life without living? Love always, ...