A decade away is much to long a time
too have only the memory of you in my mind.
The sweet anticipation of you in my site
is all that kept me sane on many a long night.
Now my journey is near it's end and I am almost home
and I fear deep in my heart I have been too long gone.
When I left so long ago you said that you would wait
I can not help but wonder and for a moment hesitate.
Is the love I know you had for me still within you heart
or had it dimmed and faded since I did depart?
Now I walk the last mile down the winding lane
I gaze at my surroundings trying to notice any change.
In my mind is the image of when I last saw you there
I clearly recall the smell of flowers and the softness of your hair.
I round the last corner but see nothing where the house did stand
but a lonely grave stone rising out of the barren land.
My eyes fill with tears as I read the epitaph
always she loved him, and always she waited, faithful till the last.
That is where I was found on your grave curled up in a ball
screaming from the pain inside as the tears from me did fall.
On that day when I knew I had lost my very heart
is when what some call sanity from my mind did depart.
What ten years of seeing the horrors of war could not do
was accomplished at the moment when I knew I had lost you.
From that day forth I have uttered not a single word
nor have I given a care to the ones I might have heard.
It is said by all that I am ill that I am insane
I have found no other way that I can hide away from the pain.
In this world, in my mind I see my last memories of you
and I relive them over and over again as if they were brand new.
In my world I never said goodbye and I never went away
I am always here with you showing my love every single day.
In this world I never fear that the pain will come again
pain that forever changed my life when I reached my journeys end.

08/01/2002

Posted on 08/01/2002
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