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A Portrait of Self

by Britt Zimmerman

My hair is unruly today
I am about to take 7 years from my life
or more
no mirror can withstand my force of ugliness
I painted pink upon my eyelids
darkened the lashes
tried to smooth the cracks from pink lips
tried to hide the gaping hole in my heart
with bigger breasts
I drink slim fast regularly
to curb the cravings of obesity
too tired to work out
smoke too much anyway
Little girl face has such a funky smile
make myself gag when I see it
I can work the crowd
when I am feeling spunky
can't really remember spunky now
28 years old with a face like a teenager
acne and the like
but I dislike
3 kids later and stretch marks on my thighs hidden only by cellulite and flab
I want the tight tummy like Britney Spears
and legs like Tina Turner
arms like Madonna and a face like
Gwen Stefani
Society has ruined my self image
or maybe its me
Either way I am growing old and self absorbed
losing my identity
finding out that beauty is always only skin deep
and that the ugliness inside will get you every time.

07/17/2002

Posted on 07/17/2002
Copyright © 2024 Britt Zimmerman

Member Comments on this Poem
Posted by Morgan D Hafele on 01/28/03 at 12:02 AM

so true, especially that last line.

Posted by Mara Meade on 02/03/03 at 06:52 PM

I started reading this with a seriousness that turned into giggling... the "three kids later and stretchmarks" did me in... oh gads, if you didn't just get down and dirty and tell it like it is! How very refreshing. Yes, there's an underlying sadness to it, but you just kept on plugging along. Go girl!

Posted by Charlie Morgan on 04/08/03 at 03:23 PM

... you described me, you, people in Sri Lanka, the Innuit in Alaska, all of everybody on this orb... good job... chaz

Posted by A. Paige White on 06/02/07 at 12:34 AM

Hi Britt. I've enjoyed reading the few pieces of you I've had time to squeeze in. Hope you get over your writer's block soon.... "Either way I am growing old and self absorbed losing my identity finding out that beauty is always only skin deep and that the ugliness inside will get you every time." was great. Could be a portrait of me too. Thanks for this!

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