If all I have is right here
Does this mean I'm only worth this much?
Everything, working, learning, trying so hard
It is all just for nothing.
Trying so hard to get something for me
It's really about taking something away
Taking away the emptiness, taking away
Every ounce of pain, every worthless thought
All I'm supposed to do is nothing to me
Because I don't care about myself
Most of the time I struggle just being
Let alone doing. Nothing seems right
Walking through a day is easy, as long as
I can keep my eyes closed.
Lock out everything, denying acknowledgement
Upon everything that may cause my stress.
Tomorrow is always another day
But another day of life is not to smile for.
I want a different day, if tomorrow was
A different day I could smile, but it's not.
Tomorrow is just another day, no smile then.
Why waste the effort, I'll save it for....
Something worth saving it for guess.
I wont know what it is til it's here,
Or until it's gone, but it won't matter.
Just one more reason to breathe in, then
Breathe out and feel the pain there.
That pain reminds me I'm alive
And I have my whole life to waste.

02/28/2002

Posted on 02/28/2002
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