It kills.....this unfilable hole inside of me.
No matter how much love we shared,
Or all the things he'd do for me,
The emptiness would never be filled.
And it's unfair to keep him,
If I know I can never be happy,
He deserves more.
I guess I'm just too selfish to let him go....I want to keep him so badly...
But the inevitable ending could just kill me more than this,
If such a pain exists.
He was right,
I never wanted that to happen.
I screamed no and stop in my mind a million times,
But I never had the strength to utter the words aloud.
One thing he couldn't control is what ruined us all.
And for some reason I feel like it's my fault.....
If I only opened my mouth,
If I was only strong enough to save myself.
But I'm not sure how to live without him
It's as if I'm living without a heart.
The pain of knowing I can't keep him tore us apart
And I can't even begin to try and make him understand.
So this is what must be....
No more you and me.

01/29/2002

Posted on 01/29/2002
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