How could I have been so vain
For so long he was right there
Yet just out of my view.

I needed someone tall
Someone willing to take risks
Someone who wasn't him

I always chose the wrong path
Did the wrong things
It seems as though vanity was worth more than my happiness.

Appearances matter,
At least that is what I thought.
I can't be seen with someone not taller than I,
Someone who follows the rules.
As much as I wanted him
It just couldn't be.

Suddenly in the midst of my new world
New people coming and going
I step back and realize,
He is always there and will always be.
Why didn't I see that before?

How could I have let a vanity,
Such as height
Stop this feeling,
A feeling which has always been there
Just afraid to peek for appearances.

At long last I can see clearly
I see that he who I once pushed away
Is really the best thing in my life.
I only wish it hadn't taken me so long.
How could I have been so vain.

01/14/2002

Posted on 01/14/2002
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