pain rages inside and tears cannot flow
i hate this feeling but i wont let it go
emotions in my heart are burning my soul
every day i get up i feed it more coal
there's one way to cope, one path through the night
i have a method, one shining light
i reach for my razor, my comfort, my friend
doesn't make it disappear, but i can pretend
forget about the gnawing deep in my gut
lost in the moment of my blissful deep cut
embrace of the blade as it kisses my arm
to cure me inside, the outside must harm
for a few timeless moments the world does not spin
nothing is real but the marks on my skin
slice and slit and cut and slash
feel more in control with every new gash
when the anger has gone and the sadness asleep
now i can stop with new patterns to keep
im fragile i know, but i will not break
just sit and wait for my sadness to wake

11/28/2001

Posted on 11/28/2001
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