Why now must I hide my true feelings?
Why now can't I scream your way?
There's something I know we must discuss
Don't know how to tell you, think you'll turn away
You think it's all a joke
Just so easy to let go
If only you had a clue
If only you could know
Friendship is the most important thing
Yet I'm crying every night
My heart is bleeding profusely
Why must I lead this kind of life?
Hard to even tell you
Hard to tell myself
Can't convince my heart
How can I convince anyone else?
They say that I'm a freak
But what makes me this way?
Is it cause I'm not the same as you?
Different in more than many ways
Jumbled up thoughts and feelings
Whirling through my head
Can't control them for much longer
Would I be better off dead?
I could only hope that if I told you
Your heart would lead you right
But because we're friends
I'll suffer countless other nights
Can't help the way I feel
No matter what you think or say
Want to stop really bad
Don't want it to be this way

10/06/2001

Posted on 10/06/2001
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