I dream of someday being loved
What if my dream comes true?
I dream of having the perfect guy
What if that guy is you?

I can't really say if you are
But I have that feeling again
It seems I have it all too often
God, I just want it to end

It hurts too much sometimes
To be feeling just like this
Maybe someday, it'll work out
And my life will be such bliss

I'd tell you how I feel
If it weren't for this deep down fear
That even if I told you
You wouldn't want to hear

Everything I see that I like
I have to compare to you
But nothing ever comes close
So maybe my love is true

Being this age is hard
For every girl and guy
So many things you want to do
But you just can't decide

You always get that feeling
That nobody really cares
You feel that everything is wrong with you
And everyone stops and stares

I learned to ignore their stares
And to focus on what I feel
Even though it's hard for me
It makes everything seem more real

I'm not going to rush into things
For it only makes things worse
It always seems to happen that way
It's almost like a curse

So I think I'll give it a month or two
And if something happens then
Then I'll either give you my heart
Or I'll take it away again

10/06/2001