The meadows are all quiet now

The wind down to a whisper

The sun is setting beyond the fields and mountains

I sit...thinking of him and her

Why does he love her like he does?

He just seems so afraid

His feelings must be as jumbled up as mine

I wonder if he feels my pain

Every time I look

I look with longing eyes

Perhaps I look too often

How much is too much?

How will I know when to put my feelings on hold?

Torn between myself and my feelings

At times I feel bold

And others I just want to run and hide

Wondering if he will ever love me

Is making my brain and heart ache

Why can't he be open about what he feels?

I have to know

It's too hard to wait

And the wait is far too long

Are my feelings too strong?

If I must wait any longer

I don't know what I'll do

Perhaps God will tell me in his own little way

He can send down an angel

Someone to tell me if I am wasting my time and feelings

I wish my heart was the sun

It could set and rest awhile

As the sun sets I think about us

But is there an us?

Or is it just me...

All by myself?

10/06/2001