Feelings...I hide these feelings...I hate these feelings...for many reasons...it's just not like me to
hold my feelings in...I'd have my feelings out in two days most of the time...but this time I just
can't open up...It would hurt more than one person this time...usually it's just me...I'm the only one
that hurts...when they laugh in my face, when I tell them how I feel...I'm too ugly...too heavy...not
what they want in a girlfriend...you won't laugh at me...at least not to my face...I know you
won't...But she would hurt...I know she would...because she is my friend...I sometimes really
detest her for having you...when I need you...so much more than she does...she can have
anyone...but she has to have you...I know...I probably base too much of my life on having
'someone'...and I'm ashamed to admit...I would do anything to get someone...I feel as if I'm
addicted to love, or addicted to wanting, or needing, or addicted to you.

10/06/2001

Posted on 10/06/2001
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