(st.i.ll dre.am.ing) last sunday morning by Richard Paez i dont remember ever seeing the moon rise through red stained glass i dont remember church ever being like this dont remember the altar being so beautiful or kneeling this way even the words to the prayers are different even the words to the prayers are the words of God ringing in my head even the words of God never seemed so beautiful
i dont remember ever seeing the moon rise through bloodstained glass i dont remember ever kneeling like this i dont remember ever opening my mouth receiving communion feeling God like this i dont remember the wine ever tasting so bitter-sweet so bitter and so sweet i dont remember ever spilling the cup ever spilling the cup of this holy sacrament
~ and the whole world is an image of falling glass and wine reflected ~ i dont remember ever seeing the moon shiver dont remember ever seeing the moon reflected through bloodstained glass ~ i dont remember ever seeing the candles burn so low reflecting ~
~ in the living wood of the pew before me is carved your image your living image reflected ~ i dont remember ever seeing the moon rise dont remember ever seeing the moon like this ~ and i dont remember ever seeing the moon as beautiful as this ~
as the invisible congregation rises to leave i feel a lingering to stay to step up to the alter beneath the jesus i saw you carve i place my finger in the still warm wax that the candle i lit made i place my finger in the wax and call your name call you to come back i call your name your name is the only prayer ive ever known the only prayer i can remember since i first met you since i first met you at this altar this altar that is bathed in the light of the moon the light of the moon that shines through the red stained glass the moon that shines through the blood stained glass above me the blood stained glass above me is the only thing ive ever known thats beautiful since that beautiful Sunday morning that beautiful Sunday morning is the only day i remember all i ever remember is your image your living image carved in the wood in the living wood of the pew before me all i can see is the whole world all i can remember is the whole world is your image the whole world is your image carved in the wood of this pew before me {Published in the "Eyrie" literary magazine, Tallahassee Community College, 2001}
09/26/2001 Author's Note: In cathedrals, even whispered prayers echo.
Posted on 09/26/2001 Copyright © 2024 Richard Paez
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