Banging heads
05/21/2008 09:10 a.m.
UGH!. UGH!. UGH!. I hate everything in my life, and the liquor is the only excuse I have for now. I drink and drink cause hopefully it will give me courage to do the end. Yet all I have is this stupid hope, and I wish it would go away. Maybe it's fear that I'll be in brimstones and frustration. All that I know is that death is all around me. A friend died last year, and I envy her cause I wish I could be in her shoes. I want to just forget about it all. Fuck love, to hell with dreams, and stab my eyes out with burning pokers dipped in lemon juice. Cause in the end I'm fucked.
I am currently Bad