Oh to rest my weary eyes
09/27/2007 03:33 p.m.
I just can't get enough sleep! Ok, granted, I'm already having to get up in the middle of the night to pee, at least once.

I've been a light sleeper since my first son was born, so the fact that my body is ready for rest earlier than my husband's is makes things a little tough too. I go to bed, and start my relaxation/meditation/sleep CD's, and usually hit a peaceful slumber before they end, I often don't even hear the cd change, but then my husband decides it's time to go to bed, and his bedtime ritual's wake me. Then I have difficulty getting right back to sleep I don't know what to do. It's not like we have a big house, and one or the other of us can go sleep in another room. He often ends up working late, and needs time to unwind at the end of the day. There are times I'll be in bed before he even gets home. Then of course, the dogs hear him drive up, and run to the door to wait for him (Thank GOD, they don't usually bark, just have to hear their collars jingle), or I hear his keys at the door. I just don't know what to do.

I have to get up at 5 am to start getting my oldest son up. He has a lot of sleeping difficulties again (he's depressed again, but is refusing to take the anti-depressants the Dr. gave him because they make him feel 'sick'), so it usually takes 2 - 3 trips to his room to get him up. Then I have to be up and moving no later than 6:30, if I've already got a lunch made and know what I'm going to wear.

Then it's off to work, running errands after work, etc. I usually get home around 5:30. By this time I'm worn out and feel to crappy to cook, so everyone has to fend for themselves. Start chasing the boys to bed around 9 pm, and if I'm lucky, I can get myself to bed by 10:30. I'm doing good to get 5 - 6 hours of sleep during the week, and I'm just exhausted!

Weekends aren't much better, with baseball, and music lessons, and church, but at least I can usually get 8 hours in bed (might not be sleeping the whole time) and can often grab a nap midday as well.

Oh, to be able to sleep, right here, right now!
I am currently Exhausted