Where do I go from here?
02/07/2002 05:13 a.m.
So much has happened since I last wrote here. I can't even think of where to start, so I'll just let fly and see where all the pieces land.

I've been taking Zoloft for about 2 weeks now, I don't know whether it is helping me yet, but I'm hopeful. The sleeping pills I'm not taking. I took 2 and that was more then I wanted to. My ex tracked me down because I sent her an email telling her that I couldn't deal with her stuff any more. She wanted to know why and what had made me so mad. She told me if she couldn't have me, she wouldn't have anyone, and then she moved away. I think about her sometimes and I hope she is doing well. I feel kind of free now though, like I've got some weight off my shoulders and I can lightly float around, enjoying what I have. Still I get upset for some reason and my day falls apart because of it, but for the most part I am doing alright. I feel like I'm open now, trying to get everything straight, I feel bad for how some things turned out, but I can't help that now.

I lost my motivation, as it happens often. I may finish this later, may not.

I am currently Jumbled