In the Library
10/14/2001 08:31 p.m.
I sat down and her new boyfriend was on the other side of the desk from me. I had to get up and move to a different computer to resist the urge to jump over the desk and start beating him with the keyboard.
Still, as far away as I could get I still look for him to go out and smoke, and if he does before I leave you can bet I'll be a step and a half behind him. I don't know what I'll do, I want to rip out his lungs for lying to my face, but at the same time I'd love to tell him how hard he had got it. That following me into her bed is going to be one huge feat to accomplish. I would let him live just so she can lay there as he pumps away, staring at the ceiling thinking, "oh god, what have I done." If I only get one thing in the whole rest of my life, I would like it to be that the moment that happens I know about it. That would just bring a huge smile to my face.
But for right now, I'm waiting to see how long I can sit here til he goes outside. I wonder if I would get expelled from school for beating the shit out of someone in front of the library. Maybe, at this point I don't really care, it would be worth it. Him and his fuckin blue haired friend, I don't hate either of them. I just want them to experience the most pain possible.
Trying to resist..my hands are shaking. I want to beat him senseless.RRRRRRRR!
I am currently Pissed Off