crazy life episode
01/27/2002 09:26 a.m.
my trip was fantastic! i lost my voice the day i left and it stayed away for the duration, but lovely thatcher fed me good food and gave me lots of yummy tea, and was very good to me in general. i had a really lovely time.
now that i am home and having to go to school and work again i think i just may go crazy. but i applied for a new job at a wonderful place and i am really hoping i get it. hours better, nicer atmosphere, etc.
oh, my world is so mixed up, and i am so ambiguous about my feelings im ny own head. the only real thing i have to be happy about is the job application and the hope of getting out of my slave-labor job at pepper's...my friend that i work with tried to kill himself last night, and his girlfriend, another friend of mine, told me about it today at work. the episode was set off my a fight he got in with the floor manager yesterday(a serious screaming match in which the floor manager brandished a peel{huge metal pizza tool]). my friend, m, really wants to leave pepper's because he gets so much shit working there...i want to leave too, and so does his girlfriend...so he went home, and slit his wrists. h, his girlfriend, found him. h tried to call 911, but m wouldn't let her because he can't afford to go to a hospital. so m had to come in to work today and the kitchen manager bitched at him constantly and i just wanted to do SOMETHING, but i couldn't. i know the manager wouldn't have yelled at m if he knew about the night before, but m didn't want anyone to know and so i couldn't tell the manager why he shouldn't yell at him and it just wrecked me. so that now everything feels like a dream at 4:30 am....i just left work and i'm pretty worried about m. and h, she is even more worried than i am(i can imagine)...stress is crazy. i need to go to meeting(Quaker) tomorrow and just work through things in my mind.
I am currently Surreal
I am listening to amy ray