epiphanies with a side of onion
01/14/2002 12:39 a.m.
I went to church today. I didnt want to go at first. But my friend, God bless her, made me go. And I went and I worshipped and I fell back in love with God. Which is exactly what I needed. Theyre doing this marriage series and though I'm not married, it so applies to me. Sean is not a Christian. He's Catholic and not living for God. I just don't see it in his life. And I realized that as much as I've been stressing about him... I shouldn't be. Because "when God says no to one thing, He's saying yes to something better". And I'm fine with it. But, I'm not saying it's going to be easy. I'm just going to be at peace about it. Because though I love this guy, I can't be with him.... ever or even just right now. Because it wouldn't be good for my relationship with God. and my relationship with God is all that matters. So though my epiphany was bitter, it'll be sweet in the end. and as Rolling Stones would say "you can't always get want... but if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need" yeah yeah
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