"that's me in the spotlight...losing my religion"
12/27/2001 04:25 p.m.
I'm feeling better, optimistic. Last night, i got all mad and hurt and stuff because my stepmom said something about frankenstein which reminded me of sean which made me feel mad and hurt and stuff. so i went in my room and did what i always wanted to do. I wrote a song (ON MY GUITAR!) :) it was called "boys aren't worth the trouble." the lyrics? well, they went like this..

I have found
that boys aren't worth the trouble
(repeat)
because when you find one
you think you like
you get sick
and he, well, he gets a girlfriend
I have found
that boys aren't worth the trouble
(repeat)
I have found
my way

well, it's not really a SONG persay... i was just fumbling around and playing different chords I've learned, but i sang my heart out. buddy, did i. i felt better afterwards. not as mad at him as i should have been... but I was better. I love free therapy. yeah, whatever.
so i just put that alecia keys song on.."woman's worth"... weird, my sister was visiting a couple weeks ago and she told me that she was gay. i dont think so, i have nothing against gay people, my brothers gay and i love his gay butt more than anything, but i dont think so. why would she write all these songs about men and have them in her video? whatever... rumors i guess.
id like to learn to play the piano. i used to be able to play heart and soul on our keyboard, but the batteries ran out and i just never got new ones.
i need to get my film developed from christmas. i wish that camera would take black and white film. i'd like to be a photographer/painter/singer/songwriter/writer and all that fun stuff. my friend wants to be a lawyer..yuck. she's an awesome writer too, i guess that's a good thing..you know, all the briefs and stuffs. oh well, thats her bad choice :)

my dads at work and my stepmoms in her shop cutting someones hair. my stepsister's out walking and i'm here listening to alecia keys and typing away in my pajamas. ahh...i love these pajamas. i got em for christmas, they're flannel and plaid! :D i think they're guys...but who cares? and im wearing this shirt..come to think of it, i dont know where i got this shirt, its probably not even mine. i might have gotten it at that thrift store i went to a while back, but i dont remember it. its good though.
well ill be back later to bore you people a little bit more :D

melanie
I am currently Better
I am listening to losing my religion-rem