November 13th, 2001
11/14/2001 11:05 a.m.
I am feeling provoked. There isn’t any immediate cause of this provocation. It’s a thought that they all feel provoked when I present, whatever little I have gathered, walking through the doors of perception. They feel threatened. They feel as if I am attacking their faith. They attack me, feeling provoked.
I am not a follower of any prescribed path. Truth has to BE. It cannot have a path. SEEING should be the only action needed. But unfortunately all the propounders of the all the paths stipulate blindness and not SEEING. SEEING is liberation. How can the advocates of the jail ask you to defy the laws of the prison? Ironically, the inmates of the jails are not aware that they are in a jail.
I am a loner in this big jail and probably the only prisoner who knows that this is a jail and I must defy the laws of the jail in order to attain liberation. Those who attained this liberation obviously knew that the other inmates of the jail could never know that this is jail nor they are capable of defying the laws of the jail. Those who could influence the inmates, laid rules for good conduct.

A perpetual feeling that you are alone and not being able to share your perceptions for being misunderstood is like living under a constant threat. I feel more irked than provoked. Its ok, this can only be my fate, I think and thus justify my state. I must keep on struggling and defying laws. The advocates of the jail would keep on sending me to the hell and I know If I succeed I will be out of this hell, this jail, by jumping the walls.
This loneliness is irksome and may be this is the reason that I always used to wish a fellow traveler. Besides I always wanted to feel committed towards my target, which was the high wall of this prison. Once I had a fellow traveler who abandoned the journey before we could really board the train.
I am, as usual, a lonely SEEKER, now on this pathless path.

I am still feeling provoked. I am feeling provoked that they feel provoked. How can they think that I can attack somebody’s faith? How can they imagine that I am capable of snatching their crutches? I normally talk in a matter of factly tone when I feel provoked or when irked.
They are capable of murdering me but they will not do this so far they know I am a lone voice. The history of these propounders of ALL GOOD and ALL GOD is the history of blood- shed, persecution and annihilation. They all preach tolerance and they cannot tolerate any body that wishes to SEE, who wishes to KNOW. They cannot even tolerate other propounders following different paths.
After all knowing is what is already known.

One, who knows, what other knows, knows
One who knows, that the other knows, knows
Knowing is, what is already known.


What is there to know? What is there to question?
They know everything. You just follow. They know better.

One who knows better
Knows better
Cause you know
He knows better
Cause you know
What he knows better.

Incidentally they all know and know better. But why are they intolerant?
Because they are close minds. They SEE nothing and claims to KNOW. How can one KNOW without SEEING? How can one SEE without BEING. I am wondering.
I am still feeling provoked. Irksome, to be precise. And I am wondering.

They know and they cannot SEE a simple reality that ‘ Islam is the greatest religion because I am born in a Moslem family.” Why can’t they SEE as to why can’t a Protestant become a Catholic? Why can’t they SEE that if he was born a catholic he couldn’t have become a protestant.
He doesn’t even know that when the SEEING and the SEEN are separate, SEEING is subject to the limitations of the SEER. Hence there can never be an objective truth. They don’t even know that truth has to be pathless. Hence one shall have to keep on SEEING. Hence one will have to be in a state of constant wakefulness. Oh! FOOLS of this earth, why can’t you SEE? Why don’t you try to SEE? Why are you against SEEING? Why do you preach BLINDNESS?
But they are in majority despite their differences and numerous paths. And what is common is normal. And what is normal is acceptable and full proof. Blindness is full proof. Blindness is the first condition of SEEING. One shall have to blind one self in order to SEE. Oh! How do I close my eyes, you Blinds of this earth? You are demanding too much from me. And I have no proof to produce in support of the fact that you are all blinds. After all they are in majority. What is common is normal. How would you communicate with the ANT COLONY? How would you proof before an ANT that they are nothing but ANTS. Because, if one understands the laws one knows that an ANT is as big to an ANT as big a MAN is to a MAN. I am feeling desperate. I am feeling helpless. This is so nonsensical. Why do they behave like a fool, particularly the one who has experienced a bit, one who has seen a bit, the one who knows a bit? One who has seen and known and experienced, why can’t he/she know that it’s just conditioning, it’s some of our conditioned self scaring us. This is a meaningless question. A meaningless hope. Yes, a shattered hope.
The point is why am I hopeful? Why? Because you saw a chance? Why? because you thought this was the only chance? Why? Because you were a big failure and you wanted one straw, a lifeline to justify that everything hasn’t been lost yet?
There can never be an objective truth. It’s as simple as any simple thing. When there’s a SEER and when there’s a SEEN how can the SEEN be objective. The SCENE will change with the SEER, his angle, and his state of mind. SEER has to be the part of the SEEN. Truth has to be pathless. Since TRUTH is WHAT IS, which has to be WHAT IS. It can never be a path leading you in one direction as opposed to another path. Why can’t they SEE this? Incidentally every one of them is a potential Bin Laden, the epitome of intolerance and they even do not know this. Can they see this potential in them? Bin laden's are born out of them, because of them. They all preach love and practice hate. They preach hate in disguise of love. They are dividing lines and all dividing lines are lead to hatred and violence.
Technical evolution has taught them to use exotic creams and beautiful clothes. Cars and aircrafts, holding them from behaving like savages. But they have all the potential despite the beautiful creams and clothes. They feel provoked and I feel irksome.
No doubt they use beautiful words, so far they are optimistic. But when it comes to their subjective interests, the landlord remains a landlord refusing to think or behave like a tenant. A tenant will refuse to see from a tenant’s point of view. Hindu will remain a Hindu. Moslem a Moslem. Hindu will kill a Moslem. Moslem will kill a Hindu. They will still kill each other if Moslem was born Hindu and Hindu a Moslem. Their position might change, they will not change. This earth will always be ruled my parrots.
Can these parrots ever SEE beyond those beautiful words, part of their personality (and not their essence). Why is a Moslem a Moslem? Cant they SEE that a Moslem is a Moslem because a Christian is a Christian and every Moslem or a Christian or a Hindu or a Jew is a potential Bin laden and there’s no difference between a Bin laden or… take any name.
This is only because there are PARROTS AND PAROTS AND PARROTS.
I feel ashamed. Though I have learned to hide my shame. But what do I do when I feel threatened? Where do I go? Will somebody tell me if an INDIVIDUAL has a place in this world full of parrots? Help me. I am feeling threatened.

I am still feeling provoked. I am also feeling tired.






I am currently Tired