septem15th, 2001
11/13/2001 02:35 a.m.
I am feeling helpless. I have never felt helplessness so intense.I am dying and I am helpless. I am helplessly seeing myself helplessly dying.Another painful aspect of this helplessness is that I am seeing her die helplessly. I am SEEING the laws taking its course. I am seeing the evil eating her alive.
Will she ever understand this?
How am I going to defy the evil without her?
She is stuck up in words. She is stuck up in the parroted interpretation of the words- Hell, Eternity, Sin and what not. She is being struck hard by the crowd this time. She is not prepared to transcend them this time. She is not prepared to SEE through those words this time. She is not prepared to behave like a chosen few this time. But the point is why is she feeling so helpless? Do I remind her of the easy passage she has between her conscious and subconscious? Will she understand me? Will she believe me in this changing situation?
The law of vibration (deviation) is taking its own toll. We could defy it so many times in the last eighteen months. But, individually, it seems so difficult now. She has decided to offer her as prey to the laws and I am feeling so helpless.
Now the greatest will turn into lowly
The most beautiful into ugly
The words in itself will become meaningful
The meaning will go into oblivion The parrots shall survive
The chosen few shall die. How does a herdsman control his flock?
How does he communicate with the sheeps?
In what language?
How does he generate fear in them?
Will he address to the chosen few in the same language and with the same matter as that of the herd?
Will the flock understand the language meant for the chosen few?
How would he decide who the chosen few is?
How would he differentiate between the sheep and a chosen one?
I wish she starts SEEING once again.
I wish that she could SEE that she can be with her God while being in the moment.
I wish she could SEE that she can fill herself with her God in the moment alone, while being in the moment alone and not when she is somewhere else.
I wish that she is aware of the fact that parrots are parrots and not guides alighting the path leading to the heaven.
I wish WE survive and live in the BLISS all through the eternity.
I am currently Helpless