septem 13th, 2001
11/13/2001 02:21 a.m.
I made her angry for a while, yesterday. A CROWD inside ‘her’ was her HER yesterday. A CROWD inside her was REACTING. A CROWD inside her was not listening. A CROWD inside her was rambling. A CROWD inside her ‘thought’, for what it thought, that she thought and that she was right. But there was an INDIVIDUAL inside her, who heard me. This INDIVIDUAL, has an association with me. I felt happy that the CROWD inside her wasn’t strong enough as to not ‘allow’ her INDIVIDUAL to ‘show up’. She was ‘two’, in conflict, when I left her. I wasn’t sure as to how long her INDIVIDUAL will survive in a CROWD SITUATION like this. This is for this reason that I made her promise to not to REACT. I did what I could to create an association in her with ME, to associate this thought that she would not react, whenever she is in a CROWD SITUATION. I also hoped that she would ‘reinforce’ this association by repeating her promise.The CROWD invariably gets into a ‘murderous mood’ in a situation like this.The CROWD wants blood for blood in a situation like this.The CROWD REACTS and when it reacts, transmitting the same ‘thought’, the atmosphere starts getting ‘charged’. This charge starts charging those who are slow in reacting. The CROWD will thus become ONE, charged with energies which, the knowledgeable claims, is required by the nature for its own survival. The CROWD thus is just a tool in the hands of nature. The evil nature FEEDS on the CHARGE generated by the crowd in a CROWD SITUATION like this.The CROWD shall never know this. They are incapable of knowing. They are incapable of doing. They are incapable of performing any ACT. They can just react to a situation. This is what they have been doing all through their history.This is the reason they ‘fix up’ their own history by fixing the causes for any effect in the future. This is the reason that what is happening is a happening and nothing else can happen.I just want to remain a witness.I want her to remain a witness.
I am currently Reflective