septem 9th, 2001
11/09/2001 01:44 a.m.
My blood pressure shot up. The diastolic (the lower reading) was as high as 100, quite above the danger mark of 90.This is psychosomatic. This is manifestation of my uneasiness, which doesn’t have any apparent cause. My Blood Pressure is an effect of certain causes. These causes are in my past. My BP could not have manifested in the absence of these causes. If there were no past (the cause), there wouldn’t be a present (the effect).There has to be a history (chain) of cause and effect behind everymanifestation, every happening, every effect. What is manifesting now is the direct result of what has manifested in the past and so on. Nothing shall exist if nothing was there. You ought to have something for something to manifest. There ought be something in nothing.‘Nothing’ for this reason alone ought to be believed to be pregnant with every thing.I can’t imagine a God (the effect) without a cause. If God is the cause of WHAT IS then what is the cause of god? The god has to be a cause and effect, both, since every effect turns into a cause consequently and so on. The present turns into past no sooner it if effected. The effect turns into cause for another effect once it is effected. My BP caused me to lie down, caused me to take my medicine, caused me to eat frugal, caused many minor changes in my routine. My Bp shall cause many more effects in the future. I cannot control the effect. I cannot dictate the effect. I cannot change the past. I cannot, in the normal course, change the happening. I can, in a limited way, effect the present (the effect) by reacting differently, by trying to UNDO the effect. One can use the law to defy the law.The law of cause and effect can be used for one’s own benefit but only if one wants to DO by UNDOING the happening.This is the reason one cannot be held responsible for (there are many more laws responsible too) his own act (because it is never an act but a reaction eventuated by the laws). FORGIVE THEM GOD. THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY ARE DOING.This is the reason the knowledgeable persons always had to adapt to crowds language in order to communicate with them. This is the reason dog has to be trained in the dog’s language and up to a level. Knowledge is beyond crowd’s level, crowd’s capacity to understand. The One who transcends this boundary is the chosen few. Genuine knowledge is not meant for the crowd simply because he cannot bear the responsibility of BEING, for his own ACT, because he cannot DO.How can a crowd SIN, when he is not capable of doing, WHEN HE CANNOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE?His SIN is that he cannot DO, because he cannot UNDO, but I think that is what nature desires from him. He is just a slave in the hands of the laws. He shall always remain in SIN.I am DOING my utmost to UNDO my crowd.Don’t you please equate me with the crowdDon’t recommend me a doseMeant for the ailmentKnown as crowd.
I am currently Reflective