septem 7th, 2001
11/02/2001 02:15 p.m.
I have questions
Many
Many so called answers
framed in questions.
There are no answers
Holding me from putting forth question marks
Against the so-called answers.
There are hypothesis
Trying to answer the questions
In isolation.
There are theologians
Putting cart before the horses
Building upon arguments on belief’s
There are so-called god men
Preachers, pastors, moulvi’s and pandits
Answering questions like parrots
Speaking different languages
Knowing nothing though pretending to know everything
Following nothing though pretending to follow what they preach
Blind, hopeless closed minds.
There are scriptures(And dances too, I am told)
With codified knowledge
Disguised and concealed
Shrouded in myths
Composed in the language of the crowd
With which
‘The ‘chosen crowd’ took the liberty
Of shaping itMisinterpreting it without the understanding
Changing the versions to suit their ends.
All these answers
Seems to be leading in every possible direction
But arriving nowhere.
Truth has to be a ‘pathless path’
Unbound by space
Unbound by time
Has to be here and now
It cannot be found in the past
Since it has to be ever ‘alive’ and not dead
It cannot be found in the future
Since future is nothing but the projection of the past
So, where do I recommence my search for the answers?
The truth
The WHAT IS.
The answer, I sense
Lies in
WHAT IS
IS
WHAT IS.
Ok.Now lets ask
ASK
But not in the language of the crowd
‘, Cause truth can not confine in a language
Cannot be subject to interpretations
Cannot be subject to one’s own experience of words and word experience
ASK but not like a parrot
ASK when you are PRESENT
AWARE of your asking
ASK WITHOUT ASKING

SEEK
But ascertain there’s intensity in you seeking
SEEK the truth
Not on any beaten path
But only on a pathless path
Knock
The doors of perception
By BEING and ASKING WITHOUT ASKING
By SEEKING WITHOUT SEEKING
Knocking the doors
Leading you
From the unreal to the real
But KNOCK WITHOUT KNOCKING
Because the DOORS ARE DOORLESS
Because the truth cannot be shielded behind a door.
You will find the answer
Even if you are seeking the so called god
No god can ever be beyond the truth
Which is
WHAT IS
WHAT IS
IS
WHAT IS
Which has to be here and now
You just have to ASK WITHOUT ASKING
You just have to SEEK WITHOUT SEEKING
You just have to KNOCK WITHOUT KNOCKING
It will come to you on its own.

After I finished writing my thought process in the form of a poem, I resisted adding one more line- stop behaving like a crowd.Yes, I have always believed that TO BE OR NOT TO BE IS ALWAYS YOUR OWN CHOICE, no doubt subject to the law of cause and effect since unless there is a cause this question TO BE OR NOT TO BE wont bother you. This is the reason it is said that the knowledge is meant for the CHOOSEN FEW since those who have questions and quest alone can be the genuine SEEKERS and not those who have the answers.Well, when I got up at around 3 Am, I had altogether a different question in my mind – IF TO KILL OR NOT TO KILL IS MY CHOICE IF THERE IS A KNIFE ON THE TABLE – when, finally, after three hours of uneasiness, I got up and found my self writing what I have written in the poetry form.I have decided to deal with that question tomorrow.
I am currently Reflective