septem 5th, 2001
11/02/2001 01:57 p.m.
It is nearing 7 AM. And I am still sleepy. Yesterday had been a long day. It had been a tiring and emotionally exhausting day, lasting 22 hours of active passivity. This does not mean that I did not wake up at 5.30. I did, but instead of indulging in a mechanical sort of thinking, as my morning routine is these days, I dozed off, on and off, and in the process, saw bits of unrelated scenes, heard absurd kind of disassociated sentences including my snoring. The associations never seem to die even when you are asleep. Something always seemsto remain active even when you are deep asleep.Finally, when I left my bed to go to bathroom to throw some water on my sleepy eyes and for relaxing face muscles and then to the copper vessel for my morning water, I found that a thought had lingered on with me from my dreamy state. The thought was- where did the God live before he created this infinite.THERE WAS NOTHING IN THE BEGINNING- this statement is so simple and easy to assume. This is what would emerge as an answer in the minds of one and all, right from a layman to a physicist philosopher in response to a question related to the beginning of this universe.There was nothing in the beginning and then only the god created the earth, the sky, the heavenly bodies etc. All the geneses, all the myths pertaining to this genesis would thus begin. The modern day philosopher or a physicist might dispute and claim that every thing actually started evolving from nothing, whether it started with a big bang or evolved slowly and gradually after the big bang. But I wonder why a layman or a theologian has never wondered where the godlived before the beginning and what was he doing when there was nothing and why did he do what he did by initiating the process of a beginning? We know what a theologian would answer. There answer would not be based on what they know but on some scripture he believe owing to their conditioning. And when the scripture would fail to answer the question, he would pronounce the question as a profanity and hence forbidden. The layman never has answers since they never have questions. They may react as per their own conditioning. If they found themselves nonplussed they might declare the questioner sick and insane.Interestingly none of the scripture have a clear concept of the fact that there cannot be a definite above or below in regard to heavenly bodies, in view of the infinite. They also fail to answer the paradox as to how can God be beyond the infinite. They also do not have the ‘perception’ of what infinite can be and inthe wake of this ‘perception’, what could be the earth’s position in the entire universe.’Well, I wanted to confine to –‘ there was nothing in the beginning- and I was to add-‘ and that every thing generated out of nothing’. There’s a title of a book ‘something called nothing’ by a Russian science fiction writer, Roman Podolny.I also want to emphasize that every thing emerges from nothing and one can create anything if one can attain nothingness.
I am currently Reflective