...oh, now what
05/30/2002 02:43 a.m.

...so I know it is no one's fault but (I am way too aware of my audience) since this site crashed last week, I have avoided returning to the site at all...now I know this is some hyper-dramatic overreacting, however, I was sadly deterred to see this loss, especially after I was just getting over a dry spell and had only written a few pieces...I feel so disheveled now...back at square 1...so easily distracted when I should be writing the most...these days, instead of writing about redefining my life I am doing it, and tho I am afraid I may one day forget things I have affected or done in my life, I at least know I did something rather than wish I did...so perhaps my writing will get back to me once my life starts getting back to me...guess I am feeling selfish these days...needed a place to write it out again...feels good...reading is a tool for most ailments, I am learning...especially those of the heart...
I am currently Bothered
I am listening to silence