Forcing a habit
03/07/2002 01:18 p.m.


Since I know I have a tendency to be a creature of habit from time to time, and I know I have a tendency to over indulge on certain occasions I am inclined to believe that soon enough, even now as I type this process of writing in a daily journal is kicking in...I can now appreciate the time it takes, the force of need for content on a routine basis, the way to tap into the rummagings in my head, despite having had no breakfast, no social contact, and not being on time--AGAIN. It seems ok though, because I am making time for myself and if that gets me in trouble, then I have to consider my commitment to the person beyond myself, and reevaluate the relationship we share. Luckily I get salary, which saves my ass these days...despite that, in the end, I will always come first, and all extraneous projects, jobs, and persons, need understand that and respect it, for our association to continue...this goes for family too...I need my space, safe space....and though this space may not be ideal for me, it is mine for now, and will get me where I need to be...for this I am grateful....both to pathetic.org....and Alyssa, who got me here...thanks doesn't express what doors you have unlocked for me here...
I am currently Restless
I am listening to 1010 winz (am news)