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The Journal of Alison McKenzie Love vs. Letting Go
02/14/2014 08:51 a.m.
There is such a high price to pay for not being true to oneself, and I believe I’m currently still witnessing the waves of those far-reaching ripples in so many ways.
I don’t want to feel anger or cause anger. I don’t want to experience drama or be the cause of it. I don’t want to feel hurt, nor do I wish to hurt anyone else. I just want the way we love and the way we express our kindness to prevail.
We are each human, and we are faulted, and things can go wrong even under the best of circumstances with each of us practicing the best of intentions. Who can know the truth of our deepest longings and desires when we cannot even discover it, and allow it to BE, inside of ourselves?
I don’t believe in ill or evil intent, no matter how many times the “evidence” may say otherwise. I choose, instead, to see all of it as our (perhaps misguided) hearts’ attempts to express and receive love from whatever direction it manifests. That’s all.
We all have lives to live with respect given to our authenticity and our life paths and the lessons we are meant to learn along the way. However that unfolds, whatever doors close/open/appear anew, I just want joy and happiness to be the fruit of our decisions, our proclamations, and our actions.
I know that part of the lesson I’ve learned is that transparency only works when it is absolute and expressed without apology and received without blame. This requires all parties to co-operate with courage and wisdom and tolerance. It requires that I release others from their obligation to love me and only me for the duration. It requires that I bypass the fear of rejection, open myself to wait for another expression of love to find me, and to love myself all along the way so that I do not feel cast aside by the Universe! But if I can do that, if WE can DO that, what amazing and unlimited conditions are created for self growth to blossom!!
In the absence of that pure transparency, I am considering the possibility that the only other possible course of action is to build walls, to remain separated and in judgment of one another. Or, maybe, we just have to let go. I don’t know anymore. All I know is - I love…all of us…so I want to believe we can transcend this old and outmoded way of dealing with love and loss.
Perhaps Cupid’s arrows are not, apparently, always limited to just piercing two people exclusively. But if we can be open about ourselves and what we are learning, maybe there is hope that we can grow beyond those limits toward new and expanded ways of understanding love.
With all best love and hope toward our continued progress in a world gone mad with complications,
Happy Valentine’s Day.
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