THIS Winter
11/03/2013 12:03 a.m.
I wonder how I knew last year that we weren't going to make it?

But then, we got through it and I thought we were in the clear..

What I didn't see coming was the return of the only girl he'd ever proposed to, five years after their split.

Seems I made waaaaaaaaaay too many allowances all along. But when we were together, we got along famously. We never argued, even through the most difficult disagreements. We held very similar spiritual points of view.He was always kind to me when we were face to face. He was extremely intelligent and funny. Where we differed, I suppose, was in our beliefs about how to honor our devotion to one another.

As grievous as this is, I do believe that Fate and Destiny are members of this current state of separation. That said, however, as each day passes, achieving longevity seems less and less likely.

So for now, I am in Arizona at my oldest son's home....one more move, one more house to add to that ridiculously long list. However, I can think of no nobler way to spend my energy than being with my only grandchildren (my son has three boys, ages 5, 20 months and 3 months old) and helping my son and dtr in law where I can.

They live in a city that is at an elevation of 3500 feet, so it's actually near freezing at night. How will I do in the summer heat? Oy, I just don't know.

I can feel the healing begin...

I am currently: in Kingman, AZ
Listening to: my two youngest grandsons gibberish